![]() I began to seize and I heard and felt a grotesque cracking sound in the back of my head and I was suddenly laying in what may have been grass with three or four paramedics around me. The third experience that happened this morning lead me to think this may be a premonition after all. I tried to talk about this with a few people and though they seemed empathetic, I also sensed that they either thought I was nuts or that they found it hard to believe. It seemed to detailed, to clear to be just a hallucination. The seizure had ended and I layed in bed gasping for air and then blacked out. Then I panicked because I couldn't feel my heart beating and I couldn't breathe and I forced myself to fight. ![]() like it was completely okay and I felt at strange peace. I could vaguely make out three people moving around by my feet and this woman kept staring into my eyes and put a hand on my shoulder and a feeling washed over me. In this experience when I realized that the sound I was hearing was a heart monitor, I saw this womans lips move like she was speaking but I couldn't hear her. I kept hearing a beeping and then literally felt my heart begin to race and pound and suddenly stop, the beeping suddenly holding out. I can describe her in great detail, though it isn't really relevant at this time. I was in what appeared to be an operating room and there was a woman standing over me with the most sublime look on her face. The feeling I got from this was very lucid, and for the most part, it was very clear. I've had premonitions in the past that have come to fruition, and when my oldest daughter was younger, she used to have nightmares about things for weeks in before they would happen and after the event happened, she would stop having them. The second experience I had was earlier this month, and this experience felt very much like a premonition. I was told not to make mention of this experience to any doctor. It was something that shook me up and was completely new and sort of scary. ![]() I shared this with a couple of people who gave me that look like I was crazy, and I am not crazy. It felt like it lasted for a little less than a half hour, even though I determined later that day that it couldn't have been longer than a few minutes or so. It was very lucid and seemed so real, and I could feel the different sensations of the water on him, and different smells. The thing about that is that his son had drowned and been brought back only to be in a coma for about 2 weeks before discovering he was completely brain dead and had to pull the plug. In September, I had a particularly bad set of seizures and in between the seizures I felt like I was down with my brother, trying to save his son's life. Now to get to the topic I want to share with you. I've had 5 episodes this month, and after two of them, I got a very nasty pain in my left arm that lasted for a couple days and would hurt off and on throughout that time. I try to fight the seizures because it frightens me and that sometimes allows me to have some conscious memory of what is happening. I get a sensation as I'm about to sleep or asleep that wakes me up moments before they happen and have learned this feeling well, and sometimes it is accompanied with a feeling of surrealism or the air gets a strange crisp smell. I've never been completely awake for these episodes. I've never had just one seizure at a time, I have what I have also read up is called "stacked seizures." I only have them when I am in that state where I am falling asleep, and it usually only happens if I wake up in the morning and go back to sleep or 7 times out of 10, if I nap mid-day or past that. They have become much worse than they were in prior years. I was seizure-free for about a year, and they started coming back in August of this year. I have been having what I have recently found out is either called "sleep seizures" or "nocturnal seizures." I've been having them for many years now, and gave up trying to find out the root of this issue after going to 5 doctors who only flashed a light in my eyes and deemed me "okay" None of them bothered to do any sort of testing so I just.
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